When I began this blog Ava was already about a year old. I always regretted that I had not started it earlier, all the things I could have recorded from my pregnancy to her birth up until that first birthday. I am grateful that Ella will have a record from her beginning.
Yet I feel like I have hardly written about my pregnancy at all. Perhaps it is because I felt like it was my last chance to focus just on Ava, or that Ava was about what I had energy for, or that this pregnancy that flown by at a record speed… What ever the reason this is one of few and the last entry I will ever do about being pregnant. After Ella we are done… two, that was the deal! Larry says I will one day miss being pregnant, I am not sure about that!? I know that there are moments that I will miss but more of my pregnancies are filled with those experiences that I can live without; heartburn, months of nausea, back pain, no sleep, hormone swings….
In my opinion the best part is yet to come. A babies actual arrival day is hard to top but coming in second place is 6 months! There is nothing like a snugly 6 month old baby who finally sleeps through the night! And it only gets better from there…
After a month in a half of nesting madness I hit a day of total anxiety, emotional releases and frustration and then the next day THE WALL! I am done and ready little girl! With my due date changed to January 29th I am now 15 days away and hoping for a slightly earlier arrival. I am looking forward to my mom arriving a providing us with loving calm, support, and food! I am ready for it to be a month later with the birth and early days of nursing past me. I am ready to introduce Ava to her new little sister. I know when I leave for the hospital with contractions I will already be crying… I will be crying because it will be Ava’s final moments as an only child, it will be the last moments of our family of three. I will be crying because I know how powerful and amazing the next hours will be. I know what it feels like to hear that first cry and actually hold someone in your arms that until that moment you did not fully realize will be in your heart forever.