Ava this is your baby sister Ella.
Ella this is your big sister Ava.
Wow what an incredible journey motherhood is. How you move through life not being able to imagine motherhood. To not being able to imagine your life without that role. From feeling like one perfect baby completes your family entirely to not knowing how the second baby was not there all along. Your heart the whole time just growing bigger and more full.
I did not have my camera out when Ava entered the hospital room and saw Ella for the first time. I remember she said, “Hi Mama!” She had a huge smile on her face. When she saw Ella her smile disappeared. Not because she was unhappy but how odd it must have been to actually see a real baby and not just my big tummy. Her eyes were wide. She gave Ella a gentle kiss on the forehead, said Hi and than ran to the window. I think it is a pretty typical almost three year old response.
Overall, Ava has done well with Ella’s arrival. She is gentle and sweet but also needing reassurance that she is indeed important and her role with Larry and I has not changed. The first time Larry held Ella for an extended period Ava walked in, looked at him and said, “daddy put the baby away.” When he responded that he was holding baby Ella she looked at me an said, “you hold it.” We have good moments and bad moments. Times she proclaims with excitement and pride that she is a big sister and times when clearly she is feeling the spotlight has shifted and creates any dramatic way she thinks of to shift it back. It is an adjustment for sure, but I also know that sharing baths, playing dolls, baking cookies and sisterly bear hugs are in our future.
My loves and Ava’s first time holding her little sister…