Well I think it is safe to say that I am obsessed with capturing my kids. Truly. The perfect moment the perfect outfit the perfect setting. I love it all. But there are moments when I choose not to have a camera at all. I leave it behind. Ironically these seem to be the same moments that EVERYONE else around me is staring through the back of their camera or iPhone.
OK here is where I may sound a little judgmental and condescending. I do not mean it to come off that way but this is my opportunity to explain to my children why there will not be many pictures of them on stage or scoring their first soccer goal. I want them to understand that these moments are ones I do not want to miss waiting behind a camera to press the shutter at the perfect moment, angry because the light is wrong or because there are noticeable distractions. These are the moments I want to live, I want to remember forever. And despite the fact that we think the only way to preserve something is to capture it either in photos or video our brains are actually remarkable tools we should trust more. Our heart does not soar quite the same while looking through a camera at the amazement of our children.
This year we went to hear Ava sing for her Christmas program. I left my camera at home and my iPhone in my bag. I sat next to Larry, with Ella on my lap and with NO camera. I sat and smiled at my girl, giggled at the adorableness of her little four year old voice as she introduced herself, listened to each note of song, and watched every movement. I was present, fully present. There are no pictures or videos but I do not need them because I was there, truly there.
Here is Ava at home singing her songs.