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The Whole Truth

In a world of social media we are inundated with only part reality.  We see a happy family out for the day, the perfect dinner being served, a wonderful art project completed, a pin board filled with all the wonderful educational activities we spend our days completing, toasts and accolades to the perfect spouse and ones very best friend a testament to the joy of life.  It, Facebook,  is kinda like the modern day “Leave it to Beaver.”  A snippet of reality that shadows the whole truth under a veil of unattainable perfection.

Well today was crappy.  YES, crappy. No fancy vocabulary, no veil. CRAPPY!

This blog is a journal. One I hope my children will look back on to remember their childhood.  I hope it makes them laugh.  I hope it fills their hearts with smiles but I also want it to be the truth.  Years from now their day will end with children snug in their beds perhaps a glass of wine in their hand and them wondering how they will do it again tomorrow.  I hope they find hope in the pages of this blog.  I hope they find truth and I hope they know that unattainable perfection is just that.  Unattainable.

Today I woke up with the flu, and a 102 degree fever. Other symptoms I will not detail.  Today was my MOPS group. One of my only times for adult, childless conversation.  I missed it.  Today my kids did not eat the first breakfast I made them.  They did not eat the second breakfast I made them.  Today I put the garbage out apparently after the garbage man came.  Today 20 minutes after I finally got Ella to sleep for nap Ava went in because she thought Ella needed her.  Sweet, yes, screaming baby with no nap… not so sweet.  Now two tired kids with no naps, and a 102 fever we were out of milk amongst other things.  Two kids in the car to the store.  I do not think it necessary to go into details at this point although I will state that Ella spends 90% of any car trip screaming or crying and that is with a nap.  Today my kids ate part of the dinner I made them (I consider that a success).  I cleaned two floors of my house, vacuumed and did a mini photo shoot.  Today we did two art projects and kicked off the first of My 12 days of Christmas Tradition.  Today like everyday I took two kids in the rain for a 30+ min walk with Lola because she is a member of the family and has needs too.  Today there were tears and spilled milk. There were smiles and giggles.  There was fun and boredom.  There were successes and failure.  Today I am sitting here typing which is my therapy while I wait for the crying on the monitor to die down.  Ella has decided that she no longer wants to go to sleep.  Today I was a mom of two children and a dog.  Today I feel guilty like many days that I have no energy to be a wife.  My wonderful husband who is equally exhausted sits downstairs alone because I need these minutes to myself.  I wish that I had wine but even without it I am thinking, how will I do this again tomorrow.  That is the truth.

But no matter what happened today, there was love.  Everyday there is love even through the tears.  Love that cannot be described in words.  And that is why even though I sit and wonder, I know how I will do this again tomorrow.

 

 

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BRAVE and BELL, Tinker Bell

Well it was a long road to the final choice of Halloween costumes.  I was set on Ella being Little Red Riding Hood and Ava jumped at the chance to be the big bad Wolf!!! How cute would that be!!  Well alas Ava was bitten by the super hero bug.  Changing her mind to Batman.  She stuck to that for weeks insisting that Ella still be Riding Hood and Daddy the Wolf.  She, Batman would save Riding Hood from the mean Wolf, Daddy. Well who can argue with that logic.  When in comes Brave.  I am not sure what had her sold first the red hair or the bow and arrow.
Well Merida it was!  And if big sis was going Disney Ella mine as well too!  And can you even imagine a cuter Tinker Bell?

Michigan Fall

Fall in Michigan is my FAVORITE time of year. The colors, sun, crisp air, crunchy leaves and I get to leave the northwest rain behind.

Well, not so much this year.

No it was not terrible but the rain definitely followed me from Seattle.  I always look forward to my trips home to Michigan. Ava gets so excited and counts down the days and except for the dreaded plane flight I have help and giggles for weeks at a time.  This year I had all of those along with non sleeping children and thus a non sleeping mama.  Not sure what it was about this trip east but we did not adjust.  At all.  I was exhausted by the time we flew back home.  Despite it all there were lots of giggles and good times and although belated I plan to share them.  Hopefully before Christmas! LOL!

Here is Ava in her window at Grammy’s.  This window is a place to climb, read, watch TV from, jump off of, or just sit.  Who knew that a window could be so many things!  Love it.

Pumpkin Patch 2012

I had plans to visit the Pumpkin patch in Michigan with my family so I almost did not bring my camera on Ava’s class field trip. I am glad I did! With all the rain in Michigan this fall the class trip ended up being our one and only. My little pumpkins!!!

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Hello Again!

Well it has been awhile. In fact it is quite ridiculous how long it has been! I have had tons of business that came before my personal blog. Sad but reality. It is nice to be busy but I also hate loosing track of this blog. It is so important to me that the girls have this. The story of their childhood.

So for awhile it will be flashback time! First up BUTTERFLIES!!!

A couple years ago my good friend Emily gifted Ava a butterfly kit. If you have never done this with your children do it NOW!! Also one of the best gifts ever! So if you need an idea there you go!

We made a whole learning experience from it. Caterpillar to butterfly. We read books, did art, pretended to be butterflies and watched them grow and change. The first week of Pre-K we let them fly away. The whole experience was amazing and it was magical to watch Ava through the process. But those last picture PRICELESS!!!

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Another Year Begins

My Ava in Pre-K
Where, oh, where has the time gone.  I cannot even imagine next year when she will be gone all day.  Ella will be so sad! She hardly excepts the 2.5 hours she is gone now!

I hardly know where to begin with this post.  School started one month ago and I am just now sitting down to write.  I am so far behind that I feel caught between short and sweet to get a post up and realizing that does not accurately record our lives at all.  I had these grandeous plans to do fabulous start of the year pictures. Nope that did not happen.  This is where I could hijack the post to ramble about the pressures of motherhood (totally self inflicted), perfection wanting to do it all and falling short but I am going to try to stick to topic…

School began with some hesitation this year. Not on Ava’s part but mine.  We had heard some concerns about Ava’s teacher and although I want to take these things in stride I worried.  Well in another example of life pretty much working out, all is good.  Her teacher is a kind women, quite and structured, but kind. Ava loves school and we were blessed with two rewards this year. One, her amazing lead teacher from last year is assisting in her class this year.  Two, Ava is once again paired with her partner in crime and best friend Emma.  She has been excited everyday and comes home very happy! What more can a mama ask for!

And no I did not get my perfect Pre-K pics I had planned.  But the night before school, as is my tradition, I sewed her first day heart.  My heart to carry in her pocket and to help her remember that I am always there. I cried while making it, I cried when I gave it to her and I am crying now typing this.  Love beyond words, beyond actions and at some moments completely overwhelming… To a great year!

Alas

Just a week ago we were still riding a heat wave. Today misty and cold. Yep fall has arrived.

Car Wash: 2 weeks ago